Greetings

[DaughterOfNyx]

Merry Meet,

I guess I should start with who I am, then how I found the site. My birth name is Aileen, but most tend to call me Storm, and I am 17 summers old. I love dancing, reading, writing, poetry, listening to music, being in the water, and riding horses. I have always been interesting in wicca/paganism/goddess religions, witchcraft, vampires, werewolves, fae, and other "mythological" creatures. As I got older I began to fantasize and research mostly about weres and vamps as my pagan beliefs developed. I was never able to find much on "true" vamps or weres and have come and gone to the topic. Last night I watched a CSI: New York episode about sanguine vampires and havens. It urged me to look up the term, which I had never heard before. It led me to the Black Swan Haven website, and then to this forum, which I have found most useful and uplifting, that I might finally find some answers.

I have always felt that there is something about me, something different, and I have always enjoyed the taste of blood (I’ve only had my own, and some from meat a bit on the raw side) and have had cravings from time to time. And the feeling of receiving a bite, and especially a neck-bite from a lover, or even the thought of one, is mind blowing. I’m also a bit of an empath. I can pick up on others’ emotions quite easily, especially strong emotions, such as anger, joy, and arousal. I have the tendency to be affected by these strong emotions (as in, I will suddenly experience those emotions, in the case of arousal, or react to them defensively, in the case of anger).
I also feel as if I can draw from the Air, but specifically during or right before Storms. I’m not sure though, or what it would be exactly. I live in North Carolina and we have many thunderstorms in our summer months. You can see them coming, the sky turns dark and the air changes, and the wind picks up very strongly and if I go out and stand in this pre-storm air, it’s an indescribable feeling. I tend to laugh out loud and throw open my arms, as if to draw something into myself. I feel power, and a rising feeling, as if before the release of an orgasm, I think lol. It’s really hard to describe. And then when the storm actually comes and the thunder is rolling and shaking the house it’s the same feeling. But it’s especially strong in the pre-storm, when I stand out in the wind.

I already know air is my element, but is this like being a psi-vamp but feeding off of the Air force? Or storm? Or something lol? AND human emotions? Maybe vampire is the wrong term, is there an otherkin that would be similar to this? Perhaps a hybrid, psi-vamp is to human emotions as some sort of otherkin is to air/storms. Or perhaps succubus? I’ve heard they’re air creatures, but I could be wrong. I tend to also be very sexual, and the act of bloodletting and biting are very sensuous to me. It’s so hard to try and pin down one or two things, or if I’m a taker and receiver type thing, with so many conflicting characteristics…

So much lol so much, hopefully someone more experienced and better-informed than me can help sort some of this out... but anyway I hope to learn a lot and to meet new people and maybe even experiment with donating, and learning more about what I am.

)O( Blessed Be,
Storm

[diss]

hi Storm, and welcome

it's great you found BSH, but don't forget that there are a whole bunch of other sites for vampires, with some very good information. in particular i would recommend SphynxCat's Real Vampires Support Page and sanguinarius.org. my preferred forum for vampires is the VCMB.

i too love storms, and drink them in very similarly to how you describe it. it is really exhilarating and a massive rush. i don't call it "orgasmic" because i don't want people to think that it's sexual, but i think i know what you mean. however, i am not a vamp. being able to drink in energy, be it from a source in nature or from a human, is not a talent restricted to vampires. i think most humans can learn to manipulate psi-energy, and feeding on it is one of the easier exercises.

as to your musings on perhaps being otherkin, you are really the only one who can answer that for yourself, just as you are the only one who can determine if you're a vampire or not. if this were a "guess your 'kin-type" game, i'd maybe hazard that you could be a kitsune. but as i said, you need to find out who and what you are by yourself.

again, welcome here, and we'll give what assistance we can ^^

[DaughterOfNyx]

Thanks diss for the links and the tip I'll be sure to check them out.
I dont know much of anything about 'otherkin'. I only heard the term itself today.
And determining if I'm one or the other of something seems difficult. I know there's something though... Or how to go about experimenting with feeding/learning how to train the ability (psi)...
I've heard of a Kitsune I'm just not sure what they are..
)O(
Storm

[Sylivia]

Merry meet. You sound like an amazing person. I to love storms. I'm the one everybody thinks is nuts because I will run out in the middle of a lightning storm just for the rush i get from it so I can only emagine what it must be like for you. I hope you will post more about this ability as I'm facinated by storms and I'm curious as to what it must feel like to be able to gain energy from them. I would love to learn more. As far as I know i can only draw energy from blood but then Ive never tried the psi thing and wouldnt know where to begin to try to draw that sort of energy. They say curiosity killed th cat but i think the cat just got bored and found other enterest to explore. Like the cat I'm always looking to learn new things. Blessed Be!

[DaughterOfNyx]

I haven't been around a storm in a few months and my mind fails to grasp a strong memory of my last. All i know is I get a rush, a high so to speak, a rising of some feeling, and I get gooseflesh and feel absolutely wonderful. I have yet to really attempt to feed from a storm itself. And I'm not sure if it is the wind accompanying the storm, the storm itself (thunder and lightning and all), or maybe both, that causes this reaction.

Also, I began reading on the VCMB forum in the Recommended Reading section, and I believe that I may be some sort of Eros Vamp... still reading... If anyone else knows anything about Eros Vamps (the types, their ways, etc) please post here or PM me or let me know if there's another thread already about them... so perhaps a hybrid. A psi vamp who feeds on sexual energy and elemental energy (via storms/wind), and perhaps a sang.

)O(
Storm

[Sylivia]

sounds interesting I hope you will let us know what you find out. I tried to sign up for the sight you spoke of but for some reason i get the whole form filled out sigh a relief and hit the finish button. for some reason the browser on this phone wont let me see the last I agree check box. irritated i tried again ..no check box once again. now im feeling a bit bummed . waited till this afternoon thinking maybe it was a sight error. sigh same bloody result. feeling a bit pistol wipped but not beaten i gave spot where the check box should have been a thourough tung lashing. and closed the page . There i thought to myself laughing . "That will teach the bloody thing not to hide from me! "

[WingedWolfPsion]

Vampires NEED to take energy or blood. They don't just like it, or even just crave it--they get sick without it.

If you don't, then you're not a vampire. Which is fine. Your experiences sound typical for a psychic.